Okay you tried but you canít keep a journal. Really itís just too much to ask for. Youíre way too busy, and a journal is just too, oh I donít know, fusty or something. Itís too out there, too dangerous, too limiting. You tried it for a couple of weeks, but itís just not you.
Okay. So try this instead. Think of someone you havenít seen in a long time. An old school mate. Someone you used to share everything with. You knew them front and back and they knew you. Or a sibling. Or your Ma. Think of someone who would already know what you are thinking before you think it, but want to hear what you are thinking anyway.
And write that person a letter.
Write them a letter when youíre trying not to overeat. Write to them when you need to motivate yourself to go for a walk. Write to them when there are chips in the pantry, and your skin and heart ache for them. Write to them when you feel as if youíll never get your health back. Write to them when you need courage to try anyway. Write to them when you donít feel the effort is worth it. Write when you donít feel youíre worth it.
Just sit down when you have these feelings, and write these letters. You can use all the journal assignments from skinnydaily.com to get you started, if you need structure. Or just, as the saying goes, pour your heart out on the page.
Of course, you donít have to send any of these letters, or even keep them. Itís the act of writing them weíre after here. To write you have to think, focus, and then use some mechanical method, a typewriter, a pen, get your deliberated ideas down. There is a kind of magic in that. Something about forcing your words through your hands onto paper or screen helps you find answers to tough questions. It helps kind of unlock your innate wisdom, and the self-preserving voice in your head and heart.
Or if you like, do keep your letters, and when youíve reached your health goals, reread them, and remember where you came from. You might bind them up, put a cover on them, and call them — er– your journal?