Over the past few years I have faced any number of extravagant eating events and undertook them always with the hope that I would exercise some level of control, either in portion sizes, or by compensating in my other eating and exercising behaviors. I have a mixed track record, and I aspire to improve a lot on this front. This past weekend, however, I ate extravagantly and with intent. After all, its not every day that I get married!
Through prior holidays, vacations and events, I have strategized about exercising more, eating more calmly, coping in new ways, and holding the line on calorie intake. Unfortunately, about a week before my commitment ceremony I pulled a calf muscle while I was running, which threw my whole exercise routine for a loop. And when exercise goes out the window, I always seem to have a hard time feeding myself properly. So with a spirit of resignation, I simply decided to go with the flow and make decisions moment by moment (rarely a successful strategy for me, personally).
A couple of things saved me. Most of all, the momentum from years of working hard at weight maintenance kept me at least aware of the choices I made, even when they werenít optimal. I journalled a lot of what I ate without beating myself up for meals I didnít record. And I was so intently focused on the joy and the celebration of being with friends and family, that I didnít need food as a crutch to cover up anxiety or sadness or stress.
Oh, and the wedding banquet (after all, my partner is Taiwanese-born)! Our ten course meal was exquisite without being excessive. Each table of eight received a single reasonably-sized plate of each course to share, one at a time. And the timing was evenly paced, with breaks for toasts and speeches. As a result, everyone was able to eat comfortably and I never had that over-stuffed feeling. I was amazed that by the time it came to cut the cake, I was actually satisfied with two pieces (hey, I love cake!).
Donít get me wrong Ė I have a lot of damage control to undertake, and I need to ramp up my cardio. But I am happy to report that I didnít throw in the towel.