Normally, I pack my lunch so that I can control portions, but today, for the first time in a long time, I was home. A refrigerator and pantry full of possibilities! So many choices! So much food!
So what did I find? There were a few leftover ravioli. Not the world’s greatest choice, but not the worst. How many could there be? I decided to finish them.
One, two, three, four, five!! I put them all on the pan to heat, and looked again. Really, Jane, I said to myself, what makes you think you can eat ALL of these? The answer was something to the effect that I could always throw out the rest. But then, I realized that Mom might like some, and between the two of us, the five would be enough.
I returned three to the container, and Mom can have them for dinner if she wants, or they’ll be mine later. Two were plenty, especially with the addition of some low fat mozzarella.
What went on here? Several things came to mind. I’m ashamed to say that my first reaction was greedy. After all, I realized on some level that there was no way I could eat them all, but I still wanted them.
Thank goodness the realization of my physical capacity for food kicked in! That might be the biggest surprise. Is it possible that my eyes are no longer bigger than my stomach? Maybe the past FOUR YEARS of concentrated focus on portion control are finally paying off. Perhaps better still, there’s finally some degree of body awareness kicking in, this time in the form of appetite and capacity.
So, 2005 is ending better than it started, at least in this regard. There’s quite a distance to go, but overall, I’ve come a long way!!!
As this year ends, it might be time to take stock of what you’ve accomplished in your journey to a healthy life. You might find that you’ve come farther than you think! For me, this portion control is a major big deal. What’s your ‘big deal’?