This is not something I’m proud of. As I approach the 4th anniversary of my surgery, I’ve been examining what’s been going on. Eating is, although not perfect, coming along. Exercise could be better, but again, I’m aware of it and am working on making changes.
The biggest area for improvement, however, lies in the vitamin supplementation. I’ve known for awhile – more than a year, in fact – that my iron stores are gone, and my B12 levels can drop to below normal (WAY below normal, in fact). I ran out of B12 months ago, and have not remembered to buy it. But perhaps even worse, I’ve had a new box of easily absorbed iron [the type given to people with end stage renal disease] that I’ve been ignoring.
Even sorrier to report (see? we’re really doing true confessions here!), I’ve been feeling it. No energy. Low stamina. Brain fog. Difficulty in coping with stress, even though some days it’s doubtful that ANYONE other than a saint could cope with the stress.
So, something had to change. Over the weekend, I’m happy to report that I laid in a supply of chewable B12 plus liquid B complex, and that I’ve been taking both regularly. But that iron!!!!
It was time to ask for help. Remember the mention of my colleague Michael? The man who proudly says that he has no issues with eating and is a body builder in perfect condition? Despite these ‘perfections,’ he’s a very kind, supportive person. I handed over the iron capsules and asked him to give me one twice a day. And not to let me argue him out of it or walk away.
So, first thing in the morning, he OPENS THE BLISTER PACK and either hands it to me or leaves it on my desk. The fact that he opens it means that I can’t ignore it. And he repeats this in the late afternoon. I’m not sure how he remembers to do this, and I’ll never know what made him realize that opening it was the right thing to do, but trust me, I’m grateful.
It’s humbling to let go like this, to confess my weakness and my needs, and to ask for help. However, let’s face facts. If I continued to struggle with this simple task, no matter what the reasons could be, the consequences will be serious. It was starting already.
So, a little creativity, a huge amount of honesty, and the kindness of someone else are all going a long way to improving my health. I’m grateful. VERY grateful.