Yesterday I was thinking a lot about that old chestnut ‘If you always do what you always did, you’ll always get what you always got.’ Even after years of hearing it, I still have to remind myself of its value from time to time. So here’s what came to mind … have you ever thought that you wanted everything about yourself to be just the same EXCEPT that you also wanted to be at a healthy weight? I certainly have.
I like my life. It makes sense to me. There is comfort to me in the routines that I have and the daily tasks that I undertake. I also know what I like and what I don’t like. And I want all of that to stay the same AND for me to remain thin.
But of course, that simply is not possible. We cannot be the same person, with the same priorities, making the same choices and having the same goals, if our desire is to lose weight and maintain at a healthy goal.
Because its not just about shopping at the right market, having the right recipes, and keeping a tidy journal (although all of those things really count!). Sure, having a healthy body at a healthy weight just requires a proper balance of nutrition and exercise … but will that really come about if I just keep on doing the same old, same old?
I’m not saying that I need to abandon the old me, or become a new me that is some kind of stranger to my past. I probably don’t have to join a monastery, or train for a triathlon, or give up eating out for the rest of my life. I certainly don’t have to imagine that I’ll never again eat just for the sheer, pleasurable sensation of it.
So what has to happen? Small, incremental, subtle, and yet ultimately profound new things.
I need to find little activities that give me pleasure and make me happy that have nothing to do with eating. I need to know that denial never got me anything other than a larger waistline. I need to relax and trust in my ability, rather than to fret and worry about whether I’m making the right choices. I need to buy healthy food and prepare things ahead of time, have contingency plans, and not just go along with whatever ‘everyone else’ is doing. I need, ultimately, to understand and accept that its okay to do things a little differently, that I’m capable of change, that the world as I know it won’t come to a screeching halt and leave me feeling bereft and deprived if I don’t have that cookie.
Change. I don’t like it. But I CAN do it, one little bit at a time.